Stay Strong

Suddenly I remember, one of my friends had through the things that she does not want. She like that guy and base what I see, he love my friend. When she story to me, I can understand. I found one paper at her room when I was at her house and she was write like this:

Did you remember every times you text me, you will say that you really miss me and I don’t say that I also miss you but inside my heart I miss you more than you miss me. But when that day comes, you suddenly changed. Suddenly you say to me to forget all about you. I really confused that time. I ask myself, did he really love me?

You say for this time being we just a FRIEND. Are kidding to me? I remember that words you say “we are not for each other.” I was cry so badly at that time. One week I really don’t have good mood. I'm really moody.

Day by day I try to forget you. When I can forget all about you slowly, suddenly your names appear at my phone. Actually what you want from me? That time you said “I'm really sorry, I do not mean it.” It was really easy you said like that. You do not what I have to through, every night I was cry, and I hope the next morning you will text me. Now it is too late. I believe I can found someone better than you.

I was cry when I read this. She was strong through that. She taught me to be strong. You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have left.  You are so much stronger than you think. Better things is coming.

Cry.

Sometimes I feel it is better if we don’t know each other. I meet you, I only get this pain. This pain is really hurt. Every day I cry. Many times I try to forget about you. But it is really hard and the hardest things I ever do in whole my life. I really love you, but like you say before this, we are not for each other.  We are not faith to be together.

Once you say like that, I cry so badly. I’m really tired crying. You never understand what feeling I had to face it. I’m really tired. Hoping you will text or call me but it just waste my times.

Every times my phone vibrates, I really hope it was you. I’m just keep waiting. This is really hurt to me. Why you give me a hope? Why you act like you love me? Why you act like you really care about me? Why you have do that to me. I really don’t understand. You just leave like that. At least say something before you leave.

I hate you. 

Friend?

Are you really my friend? When you’re happy you never ever remember me, and when you got any trouble, that time you will find me to story all about your problem. What kind of friend are you? I feel so sad actually. I really hate when friends change just because they meet new people.

Have you ever remember me just for once when you’re happy? I really disappointed towards your attitude. I'm not jealous at all when you got new bestfriend. It’s up to you. But why when you got troubled, you don’t tell to your ‘bestfriend’ about you problem? Why you have to find me?

I'm really sick of that. Actually what you want from me? I'm really tired. Once I thought you’re not my friend anymore. I hope one day you would change. 

Someone Better

Maybe you are not fate to be together with someone you like. Because I believe someone better than her or him would come along. Yes, you will get someone better. It surely will. If you like anyone the most important is don’t lied to yourself. When you started like someone you will deny it at first.

Like someone is normal feeling. Because we normal human and normal human need love. Let say, if you like her or him, but they don’t know and you only just can watch them. It’s really sad right? It is okay I know that feeling, everyone knew that feeling too.

Sometimes, we got hurt when our crushes with someone who can make them laugh, smile more than us. Sometimes, you cry so badly. Sometimes feel bad. Sometimes you can’t stand anymore. Sometimes you feel fool of yourself. You afraid to tell what were you feeling because you afraid she or he will reject you.

So what should we do? I can’t tell you how because you know  what you have to do. Ask yourself.